Judgment!

Last week I got an email from a long time friend of mine, name I will withhold, for the fact she might read my blog, but I will use her First Intitial N. through out this post. As you all may already know I was recently diagnosed with MS, so I honestly have to much on my plate already, so I didnt need any added stressors. Well what are long time friends for but to give you that added stress, & to place judgment on you for your sins or rather what they believe to be sins. Years ago N. was diagnosed with having Bipolar, so at times she can start something & even become very extreme with it. For years she has been on & off into religion. I guess you could call it going thro fazes. One min shes going thro an extreme sadness & then the next she is into religion so deep she pushes it down everyones throat. She also has this I m better then you attitude at times, which really makes it hard to talk to her about anything. Just an FYI, she now believes she no longer has Bipolar, so she now believes everything she is doing is AA ok. UGH!! She has also lost another friend over one of her religious episodes a year or so ago.
Anyways heres what happened. My friend N. sends me an email telling me she refuses to post my myspace profile on her profile because she doesnt want me to cause her other friends that she attends church with to sin. I m like WTF!! She tells me she thinks I should reconsider changing my photos because thats not who I am & it can cause someone to sin. She proceeded to tell me when she looked at my photo the spirit of lust came upon her. She also proceeded to tell me what she believes is in my heart & she wants me to change my ways etc etc. She also said that if I was living the right way the Lord would bless me & I wouldnt be sick. She also believes her hands can heal!! WTF!! I havent seen her in months almost a year now, so how she knows what I do on a daily basis is beyond me. How she knows whats in my heart is also beyond me. I did write her an email back saying if she thinks my pictures are sinful then I dont think she should step foot on the river or at the lake this summer, because someone might cause her to sin. I said woman I m in a swimming suit for Gods sakes. I could understand if I had my boobs out or something showing like that. I also said I sure hope you dont step foot outside in a bathing suit or that would make you look like a hypocrite. Oh but she plans on doing that, WTF!! I even wrote her saying that who gives you the authority to place judgement on me? Only the Lord has the authority to judge anyone, not her. She proceeded to write me back saying she does plan on being in a swim suit but with her she feels its more innocent then posing for apicture in it, WTF!! She also feels she does have the authority to place judgment on someone since she sees herself as being in a better place with the lord in her life, then others, UGH. Again WTF!! I asked her to love me for who I am & not for who she wants me to be. I also asked her to leave me alone if she cant stop judging me. So she proceed to send me even more emails telling me how shes right & I m wrong.
I love the lord & I dont do horrible things as a matter of fact I pray everyday. I dont always go to church but that doesnt mean I m not worshiping him on a daily basis. N, Doesnt know my heart so who is she to judge me, anymore then I can judge anyone else. So heres why I m even writing this post. I want to know if anyone knows how I could even talk to a person that is like this? Another FYI, she is on investigative leave from her work because she is doing this stuff at her job as well. She is send emails to people about her love for the lord & how everyone should follow her & her ways. This is just crazy!! I m sorry but I dont ever recall reading about Jesus forcing people to do his will. AS a matter of fact I dont ever recall reading he went around judging people either. I do remember reading that he shared his love to everyone including sinners. He showed them the way to his father, but he didnt do it in a bitter way like my so called friend N is.
Ok back to the questions: How do I get thro to her? If you all want me to post the emails I will if itll help me get some answers as to how I should talk to her. I do love her, but I cant be around someone who is going to always lay judgment on me. Also, another FYI about me, I havent been to work in along time, & I doubt at this point I will ever go back, & its because of many factors like my health. So she cant judge me for what I used to do as far as being a dancer. Not to place judgment on her, but she has done far worse things in her life then I have, so for her to do this to me is ridiculous. Anyways, can anyone please help me get through to her? I need some thoughts & opinions about this. Please help!!

Take care, MM XOXOXOXOXOXOXXOXOXO